been reali tough recentli.. so many things happening. cant reali seem to get a hold of myself. hais. handphone cant be repaired though sent for servicing. reali damn sad lah. im juz too speechless lah. hais. it wasnt any1 fault anywaes... no1 wanted it to happen... blame it on darn luck bah...
im tryin reali hard to forget. hais. im reali not handling this thing well. i cant take it. i reali cant. but i guess somethings juz isnt wad they wld be bah. as sum1 i respect told me,'' wads urs will be urs; wads not urs, will nvr be urs...''. haha funny isnt it? i refused to believe in that before. but now... i reali resign to fate. 'if ur hearts not in it...' hais. studies reali tied most of my tym i spent at home. reali tough lah. the maths... teacher keep teachin like a speedin train. cant catch up. maybe im juz not tt smart. every1 seem to understand. but i dun. not even a single fuck. hais... fuck it man... i hate puttin the word fuck in my post... but juz fuck it lah.. hais.
hais, sum more expecting a hair check one of these days... damn sian.. dun reali understand y sld students hav a proper haircut. teachers think tt a sch haircut will hlp the student exell in their studies. but in fact, it lowers their self esteem. discouraging them from performin their best in sch. students juz wanna look good.. tts all.. hais... sianned. reali chose the wrong sch ba. hate it. cant take it. hope these things can reali end. hais. we're like 14? 15? c'mon man... why does life get so tough now? then wad wld it be like when we grow up and start workin? wld things get better? haha... dun reali get it.. parents scoldin like shit. doubt they did work tt hard when they were at my age. hais. its okay bah...
im tryin reali hard to forget. hais. im reali not handling this thing well. i cant take it. i reali cant. but i guess somethings juz isnt wad they wld be bah. as sum1 i respect told me,'' wads urs will be urs; wads not urs, will nvr be urs...''. haha funny isnt it? i refused to believe in that before. but now... i reali resign to fate. 'if ur hearts not in it...' hais. studies reali tied most of my tym i spent at home. reali tough lah. the maths... teacher keep teachin like a speedin train. cant catch up. maybe im juz not tt smart. every1 seem to understand. but i dun. not even a single fuck. hais... fuck it man... i hate puttin the word fuck in my post... but juz fuck it lah.. hais.
hais, sum more expecting a hair check one of these days... damn sian.. dun reali understand y sld students hav a proper haircut. teachers think tt a sch haircut will hlp the student exell in their studies. but in fact, it lowers their self esteem. discouraging them from performin their best in sch. students juz wanna look good.. tts all.. hais... sianned. reali chose the wrong sch ba. hate it. cant take it. hope these things can reali end. hais. we're like 14? 15? c'mon man... why does life get so tough now? then wad wld it be like when we grow up and start workin? wld things get better? haha... dun reali get it.. parents scoldin like shit. doubt they did work tt hard when they were at my age. hais. its okay bah...
Labels: erasing the memories..
thanks
Fall Out Boy Lyrics
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I GIV UP
Labels: but nvr will giv up lovin u
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
My Future's In My Hands
sch's starting in afew days... im like still slackin here. holiday mood. slacker.
tmr goin to study at amk library. not sure got wad homework though.
'' i cant breath easy... ''
stress arh. reali nid to pia homework and studies this term.
very e important. cant afford to slack.
but oddly, i dun regret slackin and gettin those shitty results...
haiya. i oso dunno wad my futures gonna be..
i've been thinkin every single day of the holiday...
tmr goin to study at amk library. not sure got wad homework though.
'' i cant breath easy... ''
stress arh. reali nid to pia homework and studies this term.
very e important. cant afford to slack.
but oddly, i dun regret slackin and gettin those shitty results...
haiya. i oso dunno wad my futures gonna be..
i've been thinkin every single day of the holiday...
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
inlovingmemory
~ in loving memory of my hand phone ~
sonyericssonw700i
dateofbirth 09sep06
calledhometothelord 18june07
deathby seawater
the pictures we took together
the amazing videos we saw together
and the days we spent together... i will never forget... :'(
dateofbirth 09sep06
calledhometothelord 18june07
deathby seawater
the pictures we took together
the amazing videos we saw together
and the days we spent together... i will never forget... :'(
Sunday, June 17, 2007
I understand...
Labels: i understand.. friends for now bah...
Saturday, June 16, 2007
21Siaobailong™
its me again, LEWIS chewahchew...
seriously bored. abt 1 more week till sch starts... so many things in my mind...
academics.. hais.. i got a 40.9% fail.. i reali dunno how to pick myself up frm there... i must get an average of at least 55% for end year to pass... i think. if im wrong pls correct me. sounds easy? wib my slackin attitude... hais... i reali dun think i'll be able to make it.. ppl ard me telll me,'' u juz hav to study harder'', but seriously, im not in the mood to study at all...
reali miss sch as i miss u... (miss u like crazy)
i still love u... (love u like nvr b4)
waiting for u to accept me... (accept my love for u.)
last week of holiday le... so many outings. not many lah actuali. its juz tt its all squeezed up lor..
monday- gymbbq (notfree)
tues- gym, primarysch gathering OR 3H outing (notfree)
wed- tuition at nite (freeinmorntilnoon)
thurs- study day (notfree)
friday- free! (absolutelyfree)
sat- eng tuition (freefrm4onwards)
sunday- tuition (freefrm4onwards)
hais... i feel myself rotting lah... so many things to catch up...
slackslackslack...
chopchop... okay...
weak subjects
-amaths
-emaths
-combinesciences
-bio
boy...u've got a long way to go man..
- Good Charlotte Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
seriously bored. abt 1 more week till sch starts... so many things in my mind...
academics.. hais.. i got a 40.9% fail.. i reali dunno how to pick myself up frm there... i must get an average of at least 55% for end year to pass... i think. if im wrong pls correct me. sounds easy? wib my slackin attitude... hais... i reali dun think i'll be able to make it.. ppl ard me telll me,'' u juz hav to study harder'', but seriously, im not in the mood to study at all...
reali miss sch as i miss u... (miss u like crazy)
i still love u... (love u like nvr b4)
waiting for u to accept me... (accept my love for u.)
last week of holiday le... so many outings. not many lah actuali. its juz tt its all squeezed up lor..
monday- gymbbq (notfree)
tues- gym, primarysch gathering OR 3H outing (notfree)
wed- tuition at nite (freeinmorntilnoon)
thurs- study day (notfree)
friday- free! (absolutelyfree)
sat- eng tuition (freefrm4onwards)
sunday- tuition (freefrm4onwards)
hais... i feel myself rotting lah... so many things to catch up...
slackslackslack...
chopchop... okay...
weak subjects
-amaths
-emaths
-combinesciences
-bio
boy...u've got a long way to go man..
Labels: i dint wanna send back. i didnt wan to be juz friends... but friend's fine for now bah... better then nothing, when u sent me tt msg
- Good Charlotte Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
- The Moffatts Lyrics
Thursday, June 14, 2007
missing u like crazy...
hais... days i see u on9... but dared not tok to u... dunno wad to tok more rather... and summore so wad lah.. hais... love u so so much... the thoght of u nvr left my mind....
okay okay... stop it le... gettin abit too much.. hais... so damn sian... wonder how r u...
okay okay... stop it le... gettin abit too much.. hais... so damn sian... wonder how r u...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
question...
where did i go wrong...? i've been thinkin for the past few days... hais... dunno to stay on or let go... maybe sumthins bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de bah... but, not reali convinced though... hais.. haiya!!!! dunno wad to do!! haha... dun understand... juz dont.
hais... holiday's a bore... totally. boredom... tired studying afew tyms... but... hais.
my heart's like so heavy now... so manythin i cant put down... so many things i cant accept... theres so many things i wan to sae to u... hais.. forget it ba...
hais... holiday's a bore... totally. boredom... tired studying afew tyms... but... hais.
my heart's like so heavy now... so manythin i cant put down... so many things i cant accept... theres so many things i wan to sae to u... hais.. forget it ba...
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
3H chalet '07
chalet. hav been quite cool actuali. hais. except for tt incident. reali sry yancheng. hais. okay...
1st day was kinda cool. i met david and yancheng and made our way to downtown ourselves. we entered the chalet to meet ms choi, mc and hongyi. they came earlier to get the key. ya. then ms choi sat for awhile and had to leave. jiaqi and yihui were there too. hm. we practically played cards that whole day. at night, i mc and hongyi went to buy dinner. chicken rice stall, no chicken. lol. kinda troublesome as david and jiaqi wanted chicken rice. so bought then western food instead. philip the came later. hm.. then at night we watched borat. kinda freaky watchin wib yihui. david was like dodging the scene but she wasnt. slept around 5am. woke up abt 3hrs later.
day 2 wads kinda.. i dunno man. ate at BK in the morn. then i, philip and mc went to the arcade. the rest when back to the chalet. mc played his drum set game. dun reali noe wad izzit but was kinda cool. many else came that day. val, qiuhui, sandra, sheryl, lunfei, samuel, roy, sze hoe, juinli, shermin and crystal came layter. yancheng did the most of the cookin. although sum not cooked.. haha, but i dunno how to cook anywaes.. mitch and tiff came. but didnt stay for the bbq. wad a pity lah... :[
day 3. day to leave. jia qi left earli to meet her boy. hongyi went hme . then mc, yc, david, juinli, crystal, szehoe, yihui and me took the bus to bishan to hav lunch. had at long john. its wad kinda long trip there. most of us slept. had our lunch then bought bubble tea. slacked at the play ground... so sian lah.. mc and david left. yihui and yc went hme. jl, crystal, szehoe and me went to causeway to buy crystal's jacket.
overall it was kinda cool... enjoyed myself ba...
hais. been reali tough for me these days... these emotional feeling of mine. uncontrollable. i reali miss u alot... wish sch reopens tmr... haha... i reali dont mind coz i noe i can see u once again... so sian... bored... okay.. enough wib the emo stuff alrdy.
hmm hope vincent's ok... he sld be ba...
''misery, is wad i feel, when ur not around...''
kk that all ba... reali nth much to update... soon ba...
1st day was kinda cool. i met david and yancheng and made our way to downtown ourselves. we entered the chalet to meet ms choi, mc and hongyi. they came earlier to get the key. ya. then ms choi sat for awhile and had to leave. jiaqi and yihui were there too. hm. we practically played cards that whole day. at night, i mc and hongyi went to buy dinner. chicken rice stall, no chicken. lol. kinda troublesome as david and jiaqi wanted chicken rice. so bought then western food instead. philip the came later. hm.. then at night we watched borat. kinda freaky watchin wib yihui. david was like dodging the scene but she wasnt. slept around 5am. woke up abt 3hrs later.
day 2 wads kinda.. i dunno man. ate at BK in the morn. then i, philip and mc went to the arcade. the rest when back to the chalet. mc played his drum set game. dun reali noe wad izzit but was kinda cool. many else came that day. val, qiuhui, sandra, sheryl, lunfei, samuel, roy, sze hoe, juinli, shermin and crystal came layter. yancheng did the most of the cookin. although sum not cooked.. haha, but i dunno how to cook anywaes.. mitch and tiff came. but didnt stay for the bbq. wad a pity lah... :[
day 3. day to leave. jia qi left earli to meet her boy. hongyi went hme . then mc, yc, david, juinli, crystal, szehoe, yihui and me took the bus to bishan to hav lunch. had at long john. its wad kinda long trip there. most of us slept. had our lunch then bought bubble tea. slacked at the play ground... so sian lah.. mc and david left. yihui and yc went hme. jl, crystal, szehoe and me went to causeway to buy crystal's jacket.
overall it was kinda cool... enjoyed myself ba...
Friday, June 1, 2007
hais. been reali tough for me these days... these emotional feeling of mine. uncontrollable. i reali miss u alot... wish sch reopens tmr... haha... i reali dont mind coz i noe i can see u once again... so sian... bored... okay.. enough wib the emo stuff alrdy.
hmm hope vincent's ok... he sld be ba...
''misery, is wad i feel, when ur not around...''
kk that all ba... reali nth much to update... soon ba...