Friday, April 27, 2007
hais...wad to sae?
today seem went slow... hais... woke up late... came sch ard 10.30... recess tym... then climbed the gates as usual... then played soccer wib the rest... parade square... ah choo... he suck man... find fault wib me... after the yc incident... hais... muz cut slope... sch socks... no ear sticks or bar frm exam... suck rite? hais... life couldnt get worst... the new dm caught me in the field... hais... then muz run sia... then can take back ezylink card... haix... suck me... then he asked me to get a hair cut too... slope!!! suck man... i hate it... hais... choi isnt tt bad after all... hais... let things go its course ba... hais... so sian... hate sch hate sch hate sch... the onli reason i go sch is you... hais... if i dun see u... my day seems wastes... hais... but anywae... hais... dunno lah... complications hoped not passed to me... hais... love, friends, studies... hais... gonna break down soon... cant hlp it man... hais.... things dun go how i want it to be... help friend frm a fukin mole teacher caused me to this state... y? i dun understand man... y muz cut hair... if once a term i understand... buts its like very week lah... hais... exam nxt week... not reali confident abt it... hais... at hme try to pia but cant get into my head... hais... miss primary sch... miss freedom... wads freedom? hais... fuck everythin man... ahis... fuckin sad lah... everythin i think abt it... my heart sinks... and i cant reali help it man... hais... emoin is not a choice not an option but a way and the way... hais... true u may sae wadever results i get will not sffect one teacher... but it reali doesnt matter to me... ahis... true... career future all in my hands... but at wad cost ? hais.... dun think abt all these le... go slp liao... hope tmr can be a better one... love u still- alwaes on my mind...
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
it doesnt bother me...
dun wanna think abt... dun wanna talk abt it... juz so sick abt it... hais... its hurtin so much in me... can u feel it? doubt u can... its pain... rite here... feel it... on my chest... i juz wanna cry so badly... hais... scar in my heart... i'll nvr forget nor regret...
I've given every moment I had
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
You're done with one mile, and on to another one thousand
Still I could never seem to keep up with you
I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to
It's keeping me awake everynight
But I can never seem to give up on you
I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to
Nobody's wrong
Nobody's right
Keep moving on
Shine on
You were made to shine on
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends
You're gonna be better than you've ever been so
Shine on
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
Ryan Cabrera - Shine On Lyrics
I've given every moment I had
Still I can never seem to keep up with you
You're done with one mile, and on to another one thousand
Still I could never seem to keep up with you
I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to
It's keeping me awake everynight
But I can never seem to give up on you
I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
Shine on
You were made to
Nobody's wrong
Nobody's right
Keep moving on
Shine on
You were made to shine on
[Chorus]
Shine on
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends
You're gonna be better than you've ever been so
Shine on
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
You're gonna be just fine
You're gonna be alright love
Ur Beautiful..
hais... i reali love u i reali do... hais... let love be love... questioned myself... frequently... if i reali do... i tell u... i reali do...love u... so despo? haha... im not... juz stressed... okay? hmmm... alrite... maybe a twinnie little bit despo... okay? haha... wadever it is... hais... ur beautiful...
Sunday, April 22, 2007
pain and suffering...
had a fight... gave a fight... won a fight... after the fight... i wanted to call u... but tot u will be asleep anywaes... hais... pain- i eat... love- i giv...
Friday, April 20, 2007
20th April 2007
hais... let things go how they wanna go ba... waitin may not be productive thing to do but i noe ive tried... haha... today jogathon... pia until so tired still get onli 32nd... maybe must start frm the front then can get top 20... hais... saded... so sian leh... everythin i do also so jia lat... try next yr lor... bo bian...
i dunno wads next and wad to do nxt... hot cold hot cold... damn tired... wanna giv up... but dun wan to... u get me ?!
officially joined today... quite sian... haha... but nvm lah... im in means im in... dun think too much...
i dunno wads next and wad to do nxt... hot cold hot cold... damn tired... wanna giv up... but dun wan to... u get me ?!
officially joined today... quite sian... haha... but nvm lah... im in means im in... dun think too much...
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
chibai...
wah!!! dunno wad to sae liao lah... argh!!! but hais... every1 did wad they could then... hais... blame the tramp... so sucky... sound so sore loser rite? hais... but its a fact... argh!!! hate losin... nvr accomplished anythin good in my life... wan win in gym also cant... hais... damn si bai lor... hate it!!! hais... '' why so sad?'' of coz lah.. ur win liao of coz sae why sad... shit... hais... life's so damn a fuck lah... hate it hate it... so stressed lah... fuck the tramp lah... dun despise us okay?! we'll be back next year... i promise... >:-[
Monday, April 16, 2007
know...
i reali nid to noe how she think abt me... its tearing up my heart ... i cant stand it seriously... hais... reali wonder if i reali meant smthing to u... or juz a friend or even juz a school mate... it reali sets me thinkin... hais.. i reali dunno if i sld giv up... i dont think u wld understand... hais... jioin the girl tt i want sure is needin one hell of a hard work... hais... everythings meant to be broken... i reali nid to noe... im tired alrdy...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
probs...
now so fan... hais... u wlnt noe... so many problems... sld join bo? sld continue to jio bo? haha... seriously.... this sucks... haha... hope everythin can be solved soon... aiya... competition comin le... so kan jiong... 3 more days.... hais... hope can get 4th... problems problems problems...
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
hurting...
speechless... nth reali seems to be in place for a long long tym... fate bah...that curse... u win lah... hais...
so sian. onli i noe... pain. onli i felt... jealousy. onli i bear... love. tore it apart... thx lah... haha... rite here... my heart... ther... hurt like fuck... gettin over it... hope so... thks fr the memories... even when they werent so great...
so sian. onli i noe... pain. onli i felt... jealousy. onli i bear... love. tore it apart... thx lah... haha... rite here... my heart... ther... hurt like fuck... gettin over it... hope so... thks fr the memories... even when they werent so great...
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
friends
hais... wheres the trust? whats friendship to u all? haha... to me it meant everything... maybe friends dont mean anythin to u ba... but i treat every friend better then i treat my parents... believe me... haha... u see me havin mood swings... gettin pissed... to u it seem like im petty... i am petty i admit... im sensitive... i admit... to me being kept in the dark reali hurts and feels so empty... haha... tts me ba... reali affects me... i dun blame... serious... im the problem... thx anywae... for bein tt friend...
Monday, April 9, 2007
she smiles :) i dont :(
NINE DAYS LYRICS
"Absolutely (Story Of A Girl)"
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
Now how many days in a year
She woke up with hope
But she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
Now how many days disappear
When you look in the mirror
So how do you choose
Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
Now how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this shit
Day after day
Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we're walkin too far for the price of our shoes
Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
[Guitar solo]
Well your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
This is the story of a - girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smi-iles!
"Absolutely (Story Of A Girl)"
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
Now how many days in a year
She woke up with hope
But she only found tears
And I can be so insincere
Making her promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes
Now how many days disappear
When you look in the mirror
So how do you choose
Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
Now how many lovers would stay
Just to put up with this shit
Day after day
Now how did we wind up this way
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes or the soles that we choose
Now how do we get there today
When we're walkin too far for the price of our shoes
Your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
[Guitar solo]
Well your clothes never wear as well the next day
And your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her
This is the story of a - girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smi-iles!
bad times... where are the good ones !?!?
today's a day worth thinkin for me.... am i reali a flirt, i ask myself... wads the definition of a flirt... haha... do i reali flirt??? yinghui told sum1 i liked her b4 and she replied sayin tt '' didnt he alrdy change target? he so flirt wan...'' it reali pains me... hmm... i dun see no shit where i went wrong man... i change target not becoz im a flirt... juz tt i am reali unable to carry on pursuing that particular person... she might hav like sum1 or doesnt show any interest in me ok? im not a flirt... i seriously hate it man... i dont flirt and im nvr a flirt... u say i keep changin steads... but u dun noe wads reali goin on lor... i am serious in all my relationships and there's sumthings i reali wanna explain but am unable to do so at all! i feel so terrible lah... its like everybody has the bad impression on me... hais... girls... its like if i cant win the heart of this girl... sld i carry on with false hopes and end up with nth or move on and try my shot at another? i reali dunno wad to do man... im damn fu*ked up lah... hais... maybe if u think im a flirt, u sld think again b4 openin ur big mouth... if both parties are unable to suit one another... wad for carryin on this relationship rite? or sld u carry on juz for face sake and live in misery? i noe... if u dun think this relationship wld last... why stead in the first place? but u wldnt noe wads gonna happen wad... as both parties noe each other better... they discover one another's weaknesses and neglect the strong points... hais... is love tt difficult and demanding... hais... u say im a flirt... a playboy... a future editor of the playboy's magazine... to heck wib our friendship man... i dun think a friend sld make such offensive remarks... i hate it man... in class im tryin my best to control my temper... but u all are juz too much man... so much things are on my mind recently and i havent been fine so pls... hais... sumtyms i reali feel damn fu*ked up that i reali feel that fightin seems to be the onli way lah... hais... thx guys... thx for ur comments...
Thursday, April 5, 2007
juz a falloutboy....
sianned... actuali nth to blog... but juz blog lor... so sianned... hais... sch's getting boring as the days past... tmr's good fridae... no sch... no sch means no ---... hmmm... im kinda suspicious... suddenly every1 seems to be tellin me this... '' wads meant to be urs is urs....'' hate it man... dunno wads goin round... muz try to keep low profile... hias... fuck them man... reali piss me off... everyday pass by like fuck sia... hais... guess tts life... hais... argh... so pissed... maths teacher, ss teacher and form teacher... all the same... sian...
givin up isnt tt easy for me as usual... but i'll try to get ovr it as usual anywae... wads mine wld be mine... reali kinda agree... but its haunting... hais... david juz stuck gold... i think... good luck to him... :) right girls do not come by tt easily... learn how to cherish and wld be happy... :) hais... hope this can turn out well for him... jiayou... lucky guys... hopes...
givin up isnt tt easy for me as usual... but i'll try to get ovr it as usual anywae... wads mine wld be mine... reali kinda agree... but its haunting... hais... david juz stuck gold... i think... good luck to him... :) right girls do not come by tt easily... learn how to cherish and wld be happy... :) hais... hope this can turn out well for him... jiayou... lucky guys... hopes...
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
so sian... today seem so unlucky... kana lecture in mornin by cher... then suan like sian lor... haha... david lucky hor... wish u luck... haha... so sianned... hm... gotta control my feelings... givin myself away... so sian... tmr got gym... hope com. can get top3... i'll do my best... hope the others will too... :)
Sunday, April 1, 2007
i reali wanna cry...
depressed... know now... but will not give up... until ur taken... lucky guy... :)
sianed fun day....
back at hme... took the last train... phew... lucky lor... david's bro fetch yh, ray, mc, xav and yc to yck mrt... or else dunno how to go hme... hais... but today was quite a sian fun day... fun part is the tym we spent at greg's hse... greg was kinda sian anywae... they played wwe wresling, winning eleven and street soccer ps2 games... haha... quite enjoyed myself wib mahjong and dotA... tt stupid david arh, anyhow call ppl... she called me back then ask me why i called lah... then kup the phone... feel kinda empty at that point... though didnt sms for awhile liao but stil... dun reali noe wads happening... sian... cant stop thinkin abt ...... sian bo... maybe things wun work out at all... its all false hopes i hav... hais... hahas... hope not...