Tuesday, March 27, 2007
hais... juz confessed... feel so awkward... think she's gonna shun me lor... zzz... hais... zou yi bu suan yi bu lor... bo bian... reali scared that she will avoid me lah...hais.. sldnt hav said... very luan now... cant reali think... mental block... LOL... argh! so stressed recently... dio ppl also dunno how i dio.... -_- hais... sum ppl juz hav nothing to do... sian... dunno who to call... haha... hope tt things might juz turn out as i hoped... :) but reali doubt it :( love friends enermies... rather a lover a friend than an enermy... haha... lifes liddat bah... cldnt alwaes go how i expect it to be, can it? haha... sian... now readin social studies... promised ss teacher to read a portion every day... then highlight the main points... lol... can see that she reali cares... but... hais... sumtimes i dun reali see these onli whe i go hme and sit dwn and think...haha... argh... problems problems problems.... life's easy? think again...
Monday, March 26, 2007
:)
hmm... waitin for her to sms back... its been more than 30mins since the last msg... haha... but wait lor, she;s juz busy ba... haha at least glad tt there's communication...? haha... tmr got gym after sch... lookin forward to it... haha... hm... kinda happy that she msg me... :) oh she smsed back... yeap... so sianned nth to do... still nid to do david's compo... dun feel like doin... tmr b4 recess then do lor... LOL... dun care him lah... hais... so quiet at home sia... parents out... bro sleepin... sis as usual nt at hme for sum reasons? hahah... sianned... :) :p bb busy smsin dun disturb me! LOL
Jesse McCartney
shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Jesse McCartney
Just So You know
shouldn't love you but i want toI just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
Thursday, March 22, 2007
things might go better or worse,,,
hello? hais... so sian... hope everything can be normal or better at least... now so weird... see ppl then ignore... hais... didnt wan to... hope not to... but had to... at least for now.... :'(
Monday, March 19, 2007
miss u like crazy, even more than words can say...
today i ponned sch... not reali fun though. but didnt hav to study... cool huh.. hais... but heard from crystal tt Valerie said that she walked past our class... missed it lor... hais... regret ponning... hais... damn! juz my luck... been thinkin of her the whole day... missed her loads... hope to see her tmr... haha... today got the present frm crystal, alicia, amanda, gla and juin li... its like so cool lah.. a unique shoe specially designed for me! how cool is that man! haha sum more got ''number four'' written on it... so cool !!! loved it... thanks guys... u guys r the best! friends forever...
Sunday, March 18, 2007
bang the doldrums by falloutboy
''And I cast a spell over the west to make you think of me
The same way I think of you''
tis line reali translates how i feel...
The same way I think of you''
tis line reali translates how i feel...
Saturday, March 17, 2007
wowed birthdaay.... -3-
today is simply the best day of my life... haha... i've nvr been this happy in my life b4... today's morn is enough to make me happy... haha... nvm... jahia noes why( dun ask her hor. ) ... but its kinda lame actuali... but it actuali can make me happy for the whole day... though during gym i failed many times and i reali cannot believe it lor... i think is too many things on my mind le... i wanna thank those who remembered my birthday and i seriously very happi... hahahahahaha... haha... every thought of her reali makes me reali happy... although nvr go out or receive alot of presents, i enjoyed myself... receiving smses and testi(s)... haha... wanna cry liao... so touched... haha... overjoyed overjoyed overjoyed... -3- 4everyou
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
Friday, March 16, 2007
friends appreciation day
today... very surprised man........okok im touched ok? yea... nvr felt this way before... haha.. wierd though... reali wanna thank every1 for doin all these stuff for me except vincent who held me down... haha... jkjk... though my hair was messed up... and i was abit pissed... but im actuali very happy... :) haha... but i hate cakes... haha... nvm... reali wanna thank all the upper sec gymnasts... u guys reali made my day...
gym... yea... gym was quite ok today but was extremely tired after training... sweat until my whole shirt was wet... Mr foo's reali good coach... i reali am grateful to him... his patience and tutor has reali made me improve... haha... he's the best coach i had so far...
saw her today... dun wanna comment...(damn tt vincent) haha but actuali nth lah... lol
gym... yea... gym was quite ok today but was extremely tired after training... sweat until my whole shirt was wet... Mr foo's reali good coach... i reali am grateful to him... his patience and tutor has reali made me improve... haha... he's the best coach i had so far...
saw her today... dun wanna comment...(damn tt vincent) haha but actuali nth lah... lol
happy juz to look at her...
hm... today? another sianned day...
saw her today in sch... onli one word's needed... 'joy'...
had gym in the morn... damn flustered today... cant seem to do things right... hais... competition approachin... hope can get top 4... dun hav much confidence now but im sure wib shaun and joey in the team... we hav a high chance... but can we take the heat? haha... i dunno man... for sure im not able to now... muz work hard... win top 4... show others tt gymnastics is not weak at all...
after tt went to amk to find yinghui... wanted to play pool, wib jane and xiaomin, at 1st but was fully damn booked... yyh and i played lan lor as usual... used qop.... damn weak lah... hais... mus practice more...
then at night called raymond out to play bball but no ball... zzz. then we went to sum where near raymond and yh's hse... ate there and went to mac... chatted abt wad to do tmr... i mean today later...( how tym flies... abt 3 more days til sch reopen) hais... still got hw... muz do... but i dun wanna... tt ss teacher... cant stand her...threats... zzz... noob teacher... but its for my good anyway... later abt 8 meeting yh, ray, david, roy, lunfei, samual still lackin 1 person... yc saed he cldnt make it... i understand... hehe... wish him good luck wib his test or audition? haha...
''Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars''
feel these lyrics were kinda cool... any1... go listen to this song by fallout boy...
saw her today in sch... onli one word's needed... 'joy'...
had gym in the morn... damn flustered today... cant seem to do things right... hais... competition approachin... hope can get top 4... dun hav much confidence now but im sure wib shaun and joey in the team... we hav a high chance... but can we take the heat? haha... i dunno man... for sure im not able to now... muz work hard... win top 4... show others tt gymnastics is not weak at all...
after tt went to amk to find yinghui... wanted to play pool, wib jane and xiaomin, at 1st but was fully damn booked... yyh and i played lan lor as usual... used qop.... damn weak lah... hais... mus practice more...
then at night called raymond out to play bball but no ball... zzz. then we went to sum where near raymond and yh's hse... ate there and went to mac... chatted abt wad to do tmr... i mean today later...( how tym flies... abt 3 more days til sch reopen) hais... still got hw... muz do... but i dun wanna... tt ss teacher... cant stand her...threats... zzz... noob teacher... but its for my good anyway... later abt 8 meeting yh, ray, david, roy, lunfei, samual still lackin 1 person... yc saed he cldnt make it... i understand... hehe... wish him good luck wib his test or audition? haha...
''Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars''
feel these lyrics were kinda cool... any1... go listen to this song by fallout boy...
''Bang The Doldrums''
reali not bad...Wednesday, March 14, 2007
so sian... so sianned...
A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...
picked this outta a song... reali shows how i feel and wad i feel man... haha... i dunno la... but juz feel tt way lor... nth reali is as important... but i will ask myself now and then... wad if she's gone or she izzit reachable at all? will i die? or will i juz regret and juz live in my own world where everythin seem perfect? haha... at least i am happy rite? lol....lol....hahaahahaha
listen this song... its good...
-4- Great Romance -4-
A beautiful girl can make you dizzy
Like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning
She can make u feel high
Full a single greatest commodity known to man
Promise promise of a better day
Promise of a greater hope
Promise of a new tomorrow
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl
In her smile & in her soul & the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its gonna be ok...
picked this outta a song... reali shows how i feel and wad i feel man... haha... i dunno la... but juz feel tt way lor... nth reali is as important... but i will ask myself now and then... wad if she's gone or she izzit reachable at all? will i die? or will i juz regret and juz live in my own world where everythin seem perfect? haha... at least i am happy rite? lol....lol....hahaahahaha
listen this song... its good...
-4- Great Romance -4-
Saturday, March 10, 2007
hinder
wad wib u? i reali dunno wad to do... u keep askin my qtns i dunno how to reply... its like du u think we hav a chance wib each other... for myself im not reali trustin this thing u noe... and our personalities dun match at all... i cant be alwaes askin u to eat and u cant juz stop makin me mad... i've thought ovr it and its best we giv each other some more tym... and maybe get to noe each other... maybe sumthin might work out... but i hav the right to love sum1 else... i real;i dunno wad to do... everything to u sound so simple and wadever u post its like all my fault and... actuali i dun deny it... i sldnt hav taken oppitunities to know u and i dun wan u to be hurt in any way... u get me? i care abt u is not becoz i love u but bcoz i reali do care... who noes things might change later after we cleared things up alittle and who noe wad will happen... but for now. lets clear things up ok? erm..ya... errr... hais... remainin as friends for now is the best solution ba... there are tyms i dun wanna repy ur msg and i dun reali wan you to get the wrong idea abt me towards u... u following me? to be frank im liking sum1 now and i feel reali guilty and dun reali noe wads best for u and me... it reali hinders my life and i hope it wldnt hinder us as well...
Friday, March 9, 2007
sry...
life... love... friends...sch...
problems problems...
hais... yea... as usual missin her... hmmm... holidays hav come... so sian... alwaes felt so alone... family are juz a fucking bunch of ppl who didnt reali care abt me... my dad adored my sis and my mom treats my bro as gold... i dunno man... hias... hate my family so much...
hmm.. her... yea..her... havent been seein much of her recently... but shes alwaes in my heart... close my eye is her i see... cant stop thinkin abt her...
btw sry hor... screwed u ... u noe who im tokin abt...sze hoe... haha... reali sry... was damn pissed... but i noe i stung u more then u stung me... reali sry...
as a friend i gotta tell u that we are not for each other... u dun even wanna talk to me... i tried means and ways to try to noe u... but u shun away and i juz dunno how u wan it to be... i juz dun understand u... i wanted to meet u and talk to u... but u didnt attempt to do so... lovin sum1 is not tt way... u get me? hope u reali understand... everytime i see ur post... i reali get so upset... like i did u wrong and i dunno wad to do... the best thing is that u try to forget me bah... there are much better boys out there waitin for u... im juz not gd enough for u... and i dun even noe u tt well... hope u get wad i mean and im very sorry...
problems problems...
hais... yea... as usual missin her... hmmm... holidays hav come... so sian... alwaes felt so alone... family are juz a fucking bunch of ppl who didnt reali care abt me... my dad adored my sis and my mom treats my bro as gold... i dunno man... hias... hate my family so much...
hmm.. her... yea..her... havent been seein much of her recently... but shes alwaes in my heart... close my eye is her i see... cant stop thinkin abt her...
btw sry hor... screwed u ... u noe who im tokin abt...sze hoe... haha... reali sry... was damn pissed... but i noe i stung u more then u stung me... reali sry...
as a friend i gotta tell u that we are not for each other... u dun even wanna talk to me... i tried means and ways to try to noe u... but u shun away and i juz dunno how u wan it to be... i juz dun understand u... i wanted to meet u and talk to u... but u didnt attempt to do so... lovin sum1 is not tt way... u get me? hope u reali understand... everytime i see ur post... i reali get so upset... like i did u wrong and i dunno wad to do... the best thing is that u try to forget me bah... there are much better boys out there waitin for u... im juz not gd enough for u... and i dun even noe u tt well... hope u get wad i mean and im very sorry...
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
overboard...
today seems to be the coolest day of mah life... watched the vball match phs 'c' gals match... reali wowed me... haha... she was so zai lah... omg... unbelievable... in fact the best... maybe its abit overboard but... haha... so happy they won... lol... thx to my 'beloved jrs.' its like a 'muz' know now lor... juniors... hiasss, 'thx' guys needed that... but shes like so cool lor...
hias...bad part of todae is my amaths test... who wld hav known... i got a F9... 3/40 !!! OMG lor... studied VERY hard for that 3 marks.... reali was tough gettin those 3 marks... wth lah...
haha... but anywae seeeing her literally cancels all the hurtful things tt has happened to me...
hias...bad part of todae is my amaths test... who wld hav known... i got a F9... 3/40 !!! OMG lor... studied VERY hard for that 3 marks.... reali was tough gettin those 3 marks... wth lah...
haha... but anywae seeeing her literally cancels all the hurtful things tt has happened to me...
Sunday, March 4, 2007
thx for the memories....
FALL OUT BOY LYRICS
"Thnks Fr Th Mmrs"
I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
One night and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
"Thnks Fr Th Mmrs"
I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa
One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
One night and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"
god damn arms race....
woot~ juz came back frm falloutboy concert... so cool lah... hehe... but i think its a waste of money... we reached the expo at round 7? i think... then we were like waitin at this hall where everybody was like crowding ovr... they were shouting lah... i, mc and eugene tot tt maybe it was a meeting session or sumthin but... it wasnt... zzzz... then we went into the hall after abt like 1/2 hr...
at the start there was this malay band performing on stage which was like ok at first... then next was sore-loser.... which was a little annoying for me... WHERE'S FALLOUTBOY? haha... and there were like this bunch of ppl who were pushin each other outta fun at first then bacame a brawl... so irritating lah... i, eugene and mc were lyk trying to siam... eugene got elbowedd several tyms and i even got punched in my stomach...so fucking pieced off lah... chants can be heard GO HOME LAH... haha... then waited for abt 45mins then fallout boy came... kinda piece off actuali...
but their performance was fantastic lor... haha... ''Golden'', ''dance, dance'', ''sugar we're goin dwn'' haha... rocking the hse dwn lah... but there was this hot chick in front of me who was like so hardcore jumping that she stepped on my foot like a MILLION tyms already... zzz... on account that she's a chick... i wldnt pursue the matter... haha... stood for abt 3.5hrs... so tired now... hais... wonder hows she doin... sian lor...
kk tired liao... will update soonzzz ......
at the start there was this malay band performing on stage which was like ok at first... then next was sore-loser.... which was a little annoying for me... WHERE'S FALLOUTBOY? haha... and there were like this bunch of ppl who were pushin each other outta fun at first then bacame a brawl... so irritating lah... i, eugene and mc were lyk trying to siam... eugene got elbowedd several tyms and i even got punched in my stomach...so fucking pieced off lah... chants can be heard GO HOME LAH... haha... then waited for abt 45mins then fallout boy came... kinda piece off actuali...
but their performance was fantastic lor... haha... ''Golden'', ''dance, dance'', ''sugar we're goin dwn'' haha... rocking the hse dwn lah... but there was this hot chick in front of me who was like so hardcore jumping that she stepped on my foot like a MILLION tyms already... zzz... on account that she's a chick... i wldnt pursue the matter... haha... stood for abt 3.5hrs... so tired now... hais... wonder hows she doin... sian lor...
kk tired liao... will update soonzzz ......
Friday, March 2, 2007
do she noe i existed?
saw her abt 14 tyms today... haha... sound obsessive rite? darn rite i am... juz by sitting there lookin at her seems satisfying to me already... now the onli thing i wish is to see her... i mean she's like so cool lah... ideal girl for any boy... she's juz the gal im lookin for... im like missing her so much lah... zzz
btw... today... killer paper... darn pen no ink... did onli abt 3 qtns... fail liao lah... haha... im hopeless rite? haha... used to bein an asshole already... hais...
tmr goin to the fallout boy conceryt wib mc and eugene.... it wld be so cool lah... haha...
thinkin abt her...
hm... will she notice me? will she? hmm... do she even noe i existed? zzz
btw... today... killer paper... darn pen no ink... did onli abt 3 qtns... fail liao lah... haha... im hopeless rite? haha... used to bein an asshole already... hais...
tmr goin to the fallout boy conceryt wib mc and eugene.... it wld be so cool lah... haha...
thinkin abt her...
hm... will she notice me? will she? hmm... do she even noe i existed? zzz
Thursday, March 1, 2007
ironic
today has been okae for me... haha... feel so happy after getting tt pic.... anywae thx val... haha... being so into her now... desperate maybe.... i doubt she even noe me lah... hais... but on the other hand... she might not notice me at all... haha.. joke rite? but life's liddat ba... hope i will succeed tis tym... alwaes wanted to find true love.. hope she might be the one... but who am i kiddin? haha...