haiz... heard that here cld be a soccer match between normal and express classes... i wanted to hav the forward position lor... haiz... but ying hu insisted he was the better striker... i didnt hav much to sae lor... then i thought that i cld settle for right mid... but wtf! its been taken... haiz.. i dunno man... i tot i am one of the best players in the express classes but i maybe wrong now... haiz... but i seriousli think that im a gd player... haiz... dun understand... b4 yinghui came i was there but after i am there below... the inter stream match they had last yr... i wasnt selected... i was so disappointed lor... but wad can i sae... haiz... i've been givin all i've got and wad i've have but y cant ppl see that... haiz...it reali saddens me lor... soccer is my life and soul... i juz cant accept the fact that i am lousier then alot of ppl in the express lvl.... haiz... cant hlp being sad... it may seem that im overestimating myself or being proud and boastful abt myself... but... haiz... tts the harsh reality ba... haiz... life seems to hav many challenges and competitions among 1 another... evnen choosing of players or am i to play or nt isnt decided by me... haiz... im reali upset... but nvr mind... wad difference cld a match make to my life... haiz...
hey... we;ve been friends since pri3 and i didnt noe wad happened at popular lor... i didnt noe wad wrong i did... did i sae anything offensive? if i did im reali sry... but tt day... u reali hurt my feelings... haiz... u ignored me today... haiz... why liddat? we're friends leh... lets get ovr wib this matter can we? haiz... im sry...
i feel that life reali is goin dwn for me... things arnt going how i wld like it to and i cant seem to be able to do anything abt it... haiz... haiz... ppl around me arnt how they sld be... they become reali self centred... haiz... wen ever sum1 nidded me... i will try my best to hlp... but it seems that every thing is juz 1 way... haiz... like the chinese hw we're supposed to do... my grp comprising of
6 ppl altogether... they juz sketched afew 10+ pictures and hope that i wld do the actual drawings all by myself... haiz... i dun reali blame any1 but i feel that im tired being the 1 doing all these sh*t stuff and juz get praises for what i've done but its the marks they get... so wad... i can giv all the job to X and when he did it nicely.. i can juz giv him afew complements and get myself marks that was done by him.... haiz... is this fairness... i had gym after sch and they blame my 4 not bein there... wtf... haiz... cant be helped ba... accept that fact lor... wad can i do?
i hate my form teacher... its like she alwaes pin points my every tiny bit of mistakes... juz the 1st week of sch i was lectured by her 3 tyms... wads wrong wib her and her antics of rules and regulations? haiz... to her following rules are no.1.... and explanations are no no's.... regret regret... haiz... i mean its for our own good lah... but it makes no diff lor... haiz.. and having her as a teacher is like.. ''u r a student and im a teacher... dats it... dun cross the line and dun treat me as ur friend...'' im like wtf lor.... haiz...k lor... maybe i've seen little of these types of teachers...
i seem to be alwaes complaining... haiz... feel so bad... but i feel so difficult to breathe... very upset wib many of these things tt are happening...