been so frustrated recently. dunno wat had got into me... feel that ppl whom i once trusted or knew werent there 4 me after all... hmm... i guess tis is life... life? impossible... fate more rather... wads fate? if fate is wad would or will happen... then why do we have to make choices? wldnt it all be the same..? then wads life? a test? a joke? or juz of sheer luck? ppl tell me tt we shld live life to the fullest... wad does tt mean? slacking? having fun? hanging out? or juz studying till some 20+ yrs and then get a job and work till u retire? i reali dun getit...to me life is meaningless... its like so dull.. and people around are like so 'fake'. in their thinking and behavior... so why are we studying so hard 4? get a good job? and earn big bucks? so wad? who knows maybe ur son/daughters might be some f*king big spender? u wldnt know.... so wad if u live happily? wat is there after death? i reali wanna know... if there is nth after death... y r we living? or more rather wad are we living for? i dun get it... i juz dont... u see b*tches and b*stards all around us trying to be some hooligan... trying to prove themselves... wanting ppl to know how great they r... but in fact they r the weakest inside... i noe.. coz i've been there...