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Saturday, September 13, 2008
13o9o8
its alrdy like 1.40am. and im not one tiny lil bit tired.
so many things in my mind right now... (seems like things are alwaes on my mind huh.)
just cldnt get some sleep so decide to blog. played dota but the game wasnt so fun anyway..
heart's just so heavy. examinations approaching alrdy. starting on my maths but not making much progress. sometyms i just wished i did listen in class and did my homework. but its easier said then done. giv me a chance to go back in tym i'll still be the same. school's just too boring. with everyone against u. when u seem the same way towards them.. i shant descibe wat happened or who. but things for me are just tough i guess.. sometimes i wonder if really standing up for myself is something wrong. standing up for my friends is an offense? haha. ya.. fighting is bad in the eyes of the law huh? i know. so poor lewis has to face the music la? haha.! aiya nvm bah. things are more then often against me. studies, school, people... stereotyping. who really knows who i am? only duck quacking and chicken backsides blabbering about me.. am i that bad a person? that people sldnt know? hais. maybe im just a thug a hooligan bah.. 'those who uses the fist shall be overcome by the fist.' someone big told me that.. i guess the society just isnt for me. haha. sounds selfish huh.. so i have to fit in? at wad cost? losing one's personality and character to fit in? i guess thats wad every1 is lor.. so fake. pretending to be friends infront but backstab at the back. one minute ur praised another ur comdemned. i admit i do say people's flaws behind people. but i do tell they themselves too.. does it count as backstabbing? here i am pointing at people but in the end pointing back at myself.. im tired. really tired..
what if i dont make it? retain again? or quit school?
answer is.. i dont know. retaining sounds like a waste of tym man. been wasting 2yrs in sec3 and was telling myself that i wld learn my lesson and study hard. but its alrdy the eoys and wad work have i done? haha. no heart gets no results.. if another year can knock some sense into me why not? but wat if it doesnt? quitting school sounds good now.. but then my future will not be a very clear and bright one.. when i was younger.. i thought i cld be a doctor, a lawyer.. or get som job of profession earning big bucks driving posh cars... but now that 'dream' seems so far and its not wad i want. so wad if i earn money? wld i ba happy? working long hours but no time for myself.? i dont know man. maybe when i get a family then i will know wat the meaning of 'need' and 'want'. i may not get wad i 'want' but its wad i 'need' that is important... thought about my dad. is he happy with his job..? hm... maybe..? maybe not.. who knows? but one things for sure. he has to work to keep the household running... HEY! we're drifting away frm the topic.!ya... eoys.! i guess what i can do now is try my best for the next 2 weeks studying bah. lets leave the rest for the future..
so many things in my mind right now... (seems like things are alwaes on my mind huh.)
just cldnt get some sleep so decide to blog. played dota but the game wasnt so fun anyway..
heart's just so heavy. examinations approaching alrdy. starting on my maths but not making much progress. sometyms i just wished i did listen in class and did my homework. but its easier said then done. giv me a chance to go back in tym i'll still be the same. school's just too boring. with everyone against u. when u seem the same way towards them.. i shant descibe wat happened or who. but things for me are just tough i guess.. sometimes i wonder if really standing up for myself is something wrong. standing up for my friends is an offense? haha. ya.. fighting is bad in the eyes of the law huh? i know. so poor lewis has to face the music la? haha.! aiya nvm bah. things are more then often against me. studies, school, people... stereotyping. who really knows who i am? only duck quacking and chicken backsides blabbering about me.. am i that bad a person? that people sldnt know? hais. maybe im just a thug a hooligan bah.. 'those who uses the fist shall be overcome by the fist.' someone big told me that.. i guess the society just isnt for me. haha. sounds selfish huh.. so i have to fit in? at wad cost? losing one's personality and character to fit in? i guess thats wad every1 is lor.. so fake. pretending to be friends infront but backstab at the back. one minute ur praised another ur comdemned. i admit i do say people's flaws behind people. but i do tell they themselves too.. does it count as backstabbing? here i am pointing at people but in the end pointing back at myself.. im tired. really tired..
what if i dont make it? retain again? or quit school?
answer is.. i dont know. retaining sounds like a waste of tym man. been wasting 2yrs in sec3 and was telling myself that i wld learn my lesson and study hard. but its alrdy the eoys and wad work have i done? haha. no heart gets no results.. if another year can knock some sense into me why not? but wat if it doesnt? quitting school sounds good now.. but then my future will not be a very clear and bright one.. when i was younger.. i thought i cld be a doctor, a lawyer.. or get som job of profession earning big bucks driving posh cars... but now that 'dream' seems so far and its not wad i want. so wad if i earn money? wld i ba happy? working long hours but no time for myself.? i dont know man. maybe when i get a family then i will know wat the meaning of 'need' and 'want'. i may not get wad i 'want' but its wad i 'need' that is important... thought about my dad. is he happy with his job..? hm... maybe..? maybe not.. who knows? but one things for sure. he has to work to keep the household running... HEY! we're drifting away frm the topic.!ya... eoys.! i guess what i can do now is try my best for the next 2 weeks studying bah. lets leave the rest for the future..
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Saturday, August 30, 2008
3oo8o8
its been quite long since i last blogged..
and so many things has happened in the last 2 weeks...
trouble and more trouble.
fighting. quarrels. problems.
now things have been made so big.
i dont know if i can make it..
hmm... hope everything wld be alright bah...
ytd had a lil tiff.. i dont wanna quarrel darling..
everytime we do. i feel so so sad...
i alrdy am. i dont wanna affect u.
so many thing i dont know how to tell u. i wish to tell.
so many worries. just so many..
things hav just gone out of hand bah...
ppl whom i thought were once there werent there anymore..
i guess this is the fact of life bah...
i didnt regret anything. just regret letting u noe me bah...
haha.. just feel it so amusing..
tired of this carp alrdy..
want this to end fast...
i just feel so so tired and wasting my time over nothing.
so many people. so many friends...
hahaha...
darling. im sorry...
and so many things has happened in the last 2 weeks...
trouble and more trouble.
fighting. quarrels. problems.
now things have been made so big.
i dont know if i can make it..
hmm... hope everything wld be alright bah...
ytd had a lil tiff.. i dont wanna quarrel darling..
everytime we do. i feel so so sad...
i alrdy am. i dont wanna affect u.
so many thing i dont know how to tell u. i wish to tell.
so many worries. just so many..
things hav just gone out of hand bah...
ppl whom i thought were once there werent there anymore..
i guess this is the fact of life bah...
i didnt regret anything. just regret letting u noe me bah...
haha.. just feel it so amusing..
tired of this carp alrdy..
want this to end fast...
i just feel so so tired and wasting my time over nothing.
so many people. so many friends...
hahaha...
darling. im sorry...
Labels: all i can ever have done for u... my love.
Monday, July 7, 2008
today was a tiring day yet a very eventful one.
this is how my day went,.
met her at 10 at yck. had breakfast beside sch..
slacked around till 12 then headed our way down bishan intending to catch a movie.
met seinaung and migaa there.
we wanted to catch the 2 pm slot but in the end was too rush for it.
then bought the 4.30 one instead.
we had plenty of tym before the 4.30 show. then we 4 doofus peeps went around j8 sight seeing...
went almost every shop in j8. had fun lor.. :)
then went food junction i think. to have lunch.,
then hurriedly rushed off to catch 'hancock'.
actuali wanted to see 'the happening'. but dont hav at bishan GV
then in the end decided to watch 'hancock'.
it was quite an enjoyable movie actuali. :)
aint that bad,.
after the movie, dear was late for hme. headed our way to yck.
seinaung and migaa waited for me at yck while i sent her hme.
love sending her hme man. :]
then after that went back to yck where guanru and weiling met up with migaa, me and seinaung for dinner..
ate prawn noodles. actuali didnt wan eat that derh.
but wanted to use my torn dollar note hurriedly then just ordered lor.
had dessert after that. yummy :p
slacked for awhile before heading our seperate ways back hme.
i and migaa went to the mrt.
then who wld've expect that i wld meet weiseng.,
tagged along to jackson's hse to watch some tv serial.
after that cabbed back hme..
darn beat now... :o zzZ
tired.. wanna sleep le..
its already 12am. dun feel like goin to sch.. :(
but also wanna go sch., :)
your wad i go to school for.,
iloveyouCassie<3
this is how my day went,.
met her at 10 at yck. had breakfast beside sch..
slacked around till 12 then headed our way down bishan intending to catch a movie.
met seinaung and migaa there.
we wanted to catch the 2 pm slot but in the end was too rush for it.
then bought the 4.30 one instead.
we had plenty of tym before the 4.30 show. then we 4 doofus peeps went around j8 sight seeing...
went almost every shop in j8. had fun lor.. :)
then went food junction i think. to have lunch.,
then hurriedly rushed off to catch 'hancock'.
actuali wanted to see 'the happening'. but dont hav at bishan GV
then in the end decided to watch 'hancock'.
it was quite an enjoyable movie actuali. :)
aint that bad,.
after the movie, dear was late for hme. headed our way to yck.
seinaung and migaa waited for me at yck while i sent her hme.
love sending her hme man. :]
then after that went back to yck where guanru and weiling met up with migaa, me and seinaung for dinner..
ate prawn noodles. actuali didnt wan eat that derh.
but wanted to use my torn dollar note hurriedly then just ordered lor.
had dessert after that. yummy :p
slacked for awhile before heading our seperate ways back hme.
i and migaa went to the mrt.
then who wld've expect that i wld meet weiseng.,
tagged along to jackson's hse to watch some tv serial.
after that cabbed back hme..
darn beat now... :o zzZ
tired.. wanna sleep le..
its already 12am. dun feel like goin to sch.. :(
but also wanna go sch., :)
your wad i go to school for.,
iloveyouCassie<3
Labels: ., these are one of the days i love so much